This was taken last week by my little sister when I got home from a weekend blast (attended a pool party somewhere in Morato) . Since I love my creepers shoes so much, I decided to post it here for you guys to see. And believe it or not, I just bought that shoes in a thrift shop in Cubao for only 200php.
And thought you should know, I love Ukay Ukays (Thrift Shop) soooo much!
HYG!
Earlier this morning I had a few drinks with my best friend (Brad) and his partner (Bryann) in Tides, a grill not far from our place. It has been a tradition, well for any friends I supposed, to do some catching up and reflection about absolutely everything that's happening in each other's lives and the issues as well the problems whenever they got the time. And it's always, of course, my best friend which I love discussing my stories the most. He may be one of the few who really knows me, with or without make up on.
Lately I've been really wondering what I have become and what I have turned others into. Like, seriously, I think 2011 still haunts me. Every memory and bad choices I 'd made during the past years seem to be lingering with me all along. Even though I have made a deal with myself to have a fresh start this 2012, I just can't undo the past, well no one can't. I mean I just can't let it go. It follows me, whenever I do things. For second chances, I'm still always surprised.
I wasn't been the perfect plan for new beginnings, just the better idea most of the time. Sugar coated pandemonium and heart shaped promises filled up my previous years of propelling to greater heights. The beginnings I have fully embraced didn't worked out the way I anticipated them to be. As a result, they remained to be the reminder or the regret... or the shadow of any new path I'm trying to take. Brilliant at first, misguided in the middle, lost by the end.
Brad and Bryann let me recall the two sides of myself. The current setting of my story and the last chapters they have seen for a while. I wasn't completely aware that I have embarked myself in a long twisted journey of tangled hopes and fallacies until they explained to me where they think I am standing at the moment. I'm in the middle of a clash between what I have to do for myself and what I need to do for the benefit of others. They gave me the opportunity to figure out the things I have compromised unaware. What used to be the legit suddenly became the mayhem I'm trying to cover up, all these time.
I don't have the right choices today about these all new beginnings. Only the fuel. The motivation to keep on moving. Whether the past continues to follow my new decisions, might as well I stick to this determination to fight. After all, I am never alone. I need to fight this battle. Whatever the output, it will all be for the foundation of a stronger heart. A braver, independent mind. There is a war all around me that needs those two to function, full time.
I might see the errands of this for now, a fairly nice cross stitched portrait. Neat in front, messed up in the back. And New Year's just on Page 9 today. I think I still have the time to do the resolutions.
I'll keep the devils posted.
Got to go.
So how do we begin?
Clearly, this is again, another new blog of mine, after numerous brain-dead blogs I have created for over the past years. Well how many years would that be? I guess that's backtracking since 2004, not really sure though, but yes, 2004, when I first joined social communities in the internet. And today's the start of 2012 so I have decided to have a new blog for myself since I have messed up my Tumblr account big time. Yea. What seems to be an online journal ended up being an online scrapbook. Hahaha! So with this new blog, hopefully I can start all over again (which is actually what I'm doing right now) , update daily and post with sense (fingers crossed!) and refrain from making this another 'scrapbook' again with entries I never intended to finish. You know what I mean.
Now to start, I'll have to introduce myself of course, so I'm Inah Evans and that's a pseudonym gone rogue. Haha! It has been my name in the internet for a long time now. I have a Facebook account via http://www.facebook.com/inahevans , Twitter via http://www.twitter.com/inahevans and Tumblr via http://www.lolamoeksenaqueen.tumblr.com . Everything else you need to know about me are posted on those accounts. And just to save the effort of lurking on my pages, I'll go ahead and tell you guys something about me. I'm 22 years old, happy and gay, and currently working as a call center agent for almost a year and a half in the run. Hmm, what else? I'm a very spontaneous person, a joker, a bluff, a slut for whatever stuff and I always want to try a lot of things including skinny dipping and cooking! Haha. Something unique about me would be, I've got six body piercings ( two on tongue, three on left earlobes, one on right lower lip) and one tunnel (right earlobe -- big enough to insert my pinky finger) plus I always dye my hair with strong colors like green, red, pink, orange, violet etc etc, name it, I've tried it! I'm no ordinary homo I may say because I like dressing up a lot and express myself through many forms. I walk that talk, don't worry.
People will see me as the gay who loves to wear shorts and oversized tees then hangout at Starbucks and starts telling funny antics. Or maybe the very same person you see in the club dancing until he drops. Or that fag sorrounded with lots of good looking men (or women) in some random photos in the internet. I am of so many things. As a matter of fact, a lot of people gossip about how poor I am, how loud, how ugly and blah blah blah and the worst. But screw them. I'm not one of those weaklings who let gossip get under their skin. People will always try to define anyone of us, but it's our responsibility to define ourselves truthfully. A fortune teller once said that I was born a fighter, I never quit on things without giving them a shot. And I guess that's what matters the best. That as long as I never gives up on just becoming myself, all this flaws people are enjoying to gossip about me will just be one of those lanterns who lights up my way. There is more to life than listening and believing on what people tells you to do and not to. No matter how destructing they describe us, it's still our actions that will justify the real us. I exist not to live up anyone's expectations neither anyone to fulfill mine. Being a Scorpio makes me a person who's strong enough to defend myself and the people I care about and weak enough to accept my mistakes and imperfection as a human. And for what it's worth, all my weaknesses just so happens to bring out the best in me.
I know I've been a little bit serious about defining myself, I'm sorry. It's just that, I live everyday, facing different kind of detractors. So whenever I always get this chance to explain myself, I never missed any sling. I usually take it. Because it's still me who knows myself better than anyone else no matter how many of my mistakes or success people had witnessed. They may partly explain some, but they can't define the entire system. I'm a complex oxymoron. Not so easy to break.
Now since I'm turning into an emotional asshole on my first entry, I have to stop now. And that's it for my very first post here. I hope we'll be seeing a lot of each other lately guys. If my introduction bores you somehow, I apologize. I promise you, there's more to me than fake eyelashes and rants.
Happy New Year everyone!
Welcome to InahEvansYourFace.BlogSpot.com
I'm back on blogging once again *inhales-exhales*
God, I miss this.
All the best,
Inah
PS.
Yes, I'm the same bitch asking votes to be the Barangay Queen on Tumblr, FYI. <3
